Kyle Kerr

Where’d My Mojo Go?

09/26/07 | General, My Writings | 0 Comments

My university has all 4-credit classes, and we usually take four at a time, for a total of 16 credits a semester.  This semester I’m overloading and taking 20 credits so that I can graduate on time (my credits got screwed up because I transferred here after going to school for a year in PA).  And, besides the additional class, there seems to be an unusual amount of work due for each class every week, much more than normal.  I’ve been working.  I’ve also been having money issues, where I was owed money from three different sources and none were paying up, to the point where I was almost in the red for most of the month, sometimes not eating or eating very little to get by.  I also haven’t had a weekend to myself or a day off for about three weeks.

Why am I telling you this?  To try and give some sort of background to my next statement:  I haven’t written anything in about three weeks.

Well, that’s not exactly true.  I’ve written, but for classes, or for this Journal (which I guess is better than nothing).  But I haven’t written any short stories, and I certainly haven’t written anything for my novel.

What the hell is wrong with me?  I love to write, it should be a time I covet for myself.  I have an agent who is interested in seeing my book when it’s done!  All I have to do is finish the second draft and send it out to her, and hopefully I’ll get a good response back.  I have a new support system from a number of my fellow Maui writers, who keep asking me how my writing is going, and making me feel guilty when I have to be honest and say, “Nothing new to report” (which they should continue to do!).

I don’t know, I’ve been in some sort of funk.  I get into them every once and a while, where I can’t dredge up the will to write.  It’s not writer’s block; I have plenty of stuff to write about, and I know exactly how to do it.  There’s just no push for some reason.

Sometimes I impress myself and write a 10,000 word story in one week, averaging about 2,000 words a day.  I’ve had 5,000 word days before.  I like those days.

Hopefully it has just been the things on my mind keeping me from writing.  It’s definitely not a lack of passion.  I just need to reinvigorate my mojo.

I have made a conscious decision to take more time for myself.  Usually I read 3 books a month, and I haven’t even finished one in the month I’ve been back from Maui.  In the past couple of days, I’ve read about 200 pages of that James Rollins novel I mentioned in a previous post.  I watched the first season of Grey’s Anatomy last night (it was only nine episodes, but I couldn’t stop for anything!).  So, hopefully, writing will come next.

Until next…

Kyle W. Kerr